Me: "So I'm reading The Golden Compass and polar bears are guarding prisons and wearing armor. On LOST they were turning donkey wheels. I don't think polar bears know they're supposed to be doing all of this cool stuff. All I ever see them do is advertise for Coke."

Matt: "You rehearsed that joke didn't you?"

Me: "...No."

This is not the end.

LOST for me is the beauty of tragedy and the love that escapes the corners of it. It is the thought of whether Love can transcend death or if it's just something we're in love with. We're so in love with love that we search for it in movies, literature and television in hopes of grasping a map of it in our hands. Is this the way we're supposed to hold each other? Is this how it should feel? LOST for me is loneliness in feeling a feeling that seems to escape the minds of others. It is the warm, bittersweet feeling of the end, enveloped in hope and redemption and fear. It is how your dog will lay beside you even in death; dogs having no purpose unless that purpose is you. It is beautiful and nothing hurt. It is waking up to realize everything that ever truly mattered is in your hands. It's Love transcending death and overtaking it fully. It is a something place instead of a nothing place. It is everything we ever secretly hoped for and all that we never understood we wanted. It is beautiful, plain and simple, nothing less than poetic in it's beginning, middle and end. We don't fully understand the Island as we don't fully understand the Universe itself and all of this is ok with me, I think. Should we learn our purpose or is our purpose found in each other? It worked.

Beautiful.

We are an impossibility in an impossible universe.

May 30 Day Challenge - Day 3

Day 3:

Favorite Television Program -

LOST

Without a doubt, hands down, no question: LOST. It makes me think. It portrays the human condition more accurately than any show ever written; and it does this while a smoke monster floats around. It makes me feel uncomfortable, transfixed, angry, fearful, loved, understood. It is more. Now if we could just replace Kate with Buffy the vampire slayer we'd have my perfect show. Don't worry Buffy, being pushed to second place is hard, but I still like you more than Kate.

Something we should all be asking.

Where the hell is Vincent? I mean, this is the question that really needs to be answered. Seriously guys. Seriously.

Reactions to "Everybody Loves Hugo" and this season of LOST in general.

First, the way they answer the question of the "whispers" was so cheesy I literally rolled my eyes. It wasn't so much that the answer itself was cheesy, because it actually is sort of poetic, but I hated the way it was done. The answer makes a lot of sense if you've read the transcripts of the whispers; which are kind of haunting. Though, I thought the island wasn't "purgatory", Darlton?

Second, does anyone else miss and remember the time when Sayid was actually a good character and exciting to watch? I can't help but think this is just a trick; that Sayid is just playing FLocke to the end, but his character has lost all appeal this season and that's a shame. Actually, a lot of characters have lost their appeal. When I find myself liking Jack more than Sawyer you know there's a problem. It's still good television and miles above everything else on TV, but despite some real wonderful moments I can't help but feeling this season is a let down. Even if they wow us in those final two hours, will it be as satisfying if the whole season just felt like a waiting game? Then again, I suppose that's what the show has been from the start.

Third, does Sawyer even remember that great love of his life Juliet? Starting to wonder. I know Juliet is going to show up eventually but I'm betting it will be in the alt timeline, perhaps saving Sun's baby. I really hope I'm wrong. If true love is a guiding force in this show, then they'd have to see each other to remember. Unless they pair him with Kate, as sort of hinted to in Sawyer's ALT, which is complete bullshit. She is not his constant. She should be Jack's... if someone has to end up with that tramp.

Four, fans are so protective of Darlton. Gimme me a break. If you say something negative about this season, you're suddenly not a fan and have no OMGZZZ FAITH. Darlton is still an amazing duo and the world that they've created is nothing short of amazing. I just feel that we're far enough into the season now for me to say that they dropped the ball here. They had this whole world to expand on and they chose not to because perhaps they never had the answers to begin with. Any answers given feel forced and copy pasted. Maybe the last few hours of the show will completely wow me, but even if that happens, I'm still going to feel like so much more could have been done with this season just based on the dozen episodes we've already seen. Maybe this season standing on its own isn't so bad, but its lack of conclusive answers to all the themes presented in previous seasons make those previous seasons now seem less than they were. At least the ride was fun.

Five, if love helps the characters remember then why didn't Locke remember when he found Helen in the alt?

Six, I realize I'm full of complaints. The episode wasn't bad, it's this season that I have some issues with.

Seven, something I loved was the Willy Wonka song in next week's preview. Simultaneously creepy and wonderful.

Until then.

Grander Maybes.

*Spoiler for Looking For Alaska.

Eggs and coffee for breakfast. This is just another morning where I'm spilling coffee on myself. I'd never make it in the corporate world... or want to for that matter. Time to read some LOST discussions. I liked last night's episode. It wasn't epic but it certainly had its moments. The end is nigh! I'm trying to decide what book to read next as I just finished another last night [Chelsea Handler makes me pee my pants]. I really need to finish The Wind Up Bird Chronicle but man, is it long, and there are so many other books to get distracted by. I need to stop taking books out from the library because I've also been buying books to read and they've received no attention. I suppose you could call it my life's library. Speaking of which I'm still trying to find a decent discussion/debate on the web as to whether or not Alaska Young killed herself. I guess it could be both on purpose and an accident too, or maybe just an indifferent maybe, I know all about that indifferent maybe. Suppose it's better to stick around for Grander Maybes though, at least if you're listening to Pudge. He's probably right.

By Adam Beane.

I will be sad when this show ends but hopefully satisfied... hopefully.