Sometimes I feel a bit like a bad pet owner. I think it is pretty telling of how I would be as a mother. I mean well but there are a lot of times when I retreat into myself and can't be bothered. I feel bad for Locke because we're all he's got and sometimes with our weird work schedules we are too zombie like to do anything fun with him. Don't get me wrong, he's rarely alone, and doesn't seem bored. He isn't overly destructive or rebellious. He's actually very intelligent and well behaved for not even being five months old yet. I read a lot about Australian Cattle Dogs needing constant activity and we provide so little but the majority of the time he seems just fine with that. I don't really want to take him anywhere until his puppy shots are done. I heard there is a lot of cases of Parvo going around Lee County. He got completely off his vaccination schedule because he had kennel cough and the next low cost shots at Petco are in like two weeks. So now I feel like an asshole because I can't afford the difference in price between the low cost shots and taking him to the vet so i've waited and sheltered him and now he will probably be socially retarded because of it. We've considered getting another dog because I've heard from a lot of people it's no harder than one and actually usually less trouble because they keep each other occupied. But I don't really want another dog for any reason besides to keep him company and entertained and we're not even supposed to have one dog really. Besides it would be twice the cost and I'm not prepared for that. The picture above is of two red heelers we saw at Pet Kingdom last week. I want my next dog to be from a shelter, which is not possible until we move out of here. One, the boy (up front) went home already. I saw his picture on their site with a young girl. The girl may still be there though. Anyway, I don't think we will get another dog. This is just me rambling about my guilt. I just fed him and he's currently lounging on his dog bed surrounded by toys (I over compensate) as I lay in bed preparing to read because i'm too exhausted to do much else. He actually woke us up in the middle of the night for the first time in a long time and it completely threw off my sleep. I had yet another energy drink today. I'm starting quite the collection.