Thrifting and whatnot.

What have I done with my long weekend you may ask? Not much of anything. I spent a great deal of it thrifting, as you can see from the photos above. I acquired all of those books for less than $15 total. It's the cheapest way to go. Even books on Half.Com cost at least $4 a piece with shipping. What to read next? The only one of them I've already read is Eat, Pray, Love. I've been reading Pride & Prejudice but haven't picked up Plath's journals in awhile. They're very heavy and as I already tend to over think myself there are only certain times I can stomach her writing. Tumblr has kept me from doing as much reading this weekend as I would have liked. I don't know why, sometimes I just get so sucked in and inspired by that site. Other times I can't stand it. There was "Jack" who was here one night and sadly gone the next. This left me a funk all of yesterday, which I spent eating ice cream and watching old episodes of Buffy The Vampire Slayer. Yes, this is real life. Matt has spent the whole weekend gone and working, although tonight he wants to take me to dinner. I am not ready to let this weekend go. If this were my life, all reading and inspiration, i'd be most pleased to wake up every day. Instead I slave away at a meaningless 9-5 that really makes me want to kill myself. I'm supposed to visit Ringling on Friday but I'm wondering if it's almost pointless to waste a sick day on that when I'm not considering attending until next year and a lot can change between now and then. Financially, Ringling worries me a great deal. I just need to feel like I'm doing something during this economic crisis, working towards something with meaning, and is college the only way to do that? Taking on all that debt? I don't know. I really don't know which way to turn anymore. Am I wasted if I spend each day making money, in love, and reading books and taking photos and playing with my dog and looking for inspirational things? Traveling when I can. Is this wasting life? What else is there to do? Is Ringling really the right place or do I just need it to feel like my time is worth something?

Faith is a lying tramp.

I regret not having a Rupert Giles in my life or an Oz. Any of them really. I'm also still really lusting after a nice claddagh ring but when at the mall I saw some pretty crappy looking ones at very high prices. This Buffy The Vampire Slayer. Making me long for things.
Speaking of longing I am waiting on buying my Lens until I have more funds. I could buy it, but I should wait. So long as I have it before 4th of July i'll be happy. I scored a copy of Pride & Prejudice at Target today for $2.50. They have others too: Wuthering Heights is one. Tomorrow: Thrifting. Library. Sunday: Pool side. Welcome to the long weekend. This entry has been rather pointless.

Sometimes I feel a bit like a bad pet owner. I think it is pretty telling of how I would be as a mother. I mean well but there are a lot of times when I retreat into myself and can't be bothered. I feel bad for Locke because we're all he's got and sometimes with our weird work schedules we are too zombie like to do anything fun with him. Don't get me wrong, he's rarely alone, and doesn't seem bored. He isn't overly destructive or rebellious. He's actually very intelligent and well behaved for not even being five months old yet. I read a lot about Australian Cattle Dogs needing constant activity and we provide so little but the majority of the time he seems just fine with that. I don't really want to take him anywhere until his puppy shots are done. I heard there is a lot of cases of Parvo going around Lee County. He got completely off his vaccination schedule because he had kennel cough and the next low cost shots at Petco are in like two weeks. So now I feel like an asshole because I can't afford the difference in price between the low cost shots and taking him to the vet so i've waited and sheltered him and now he will probably be socially retarded because of it. We've considered getting another dog because I've heard from a lot of people it's no harder than one and actually usually less trouble because they keep each other occupied. But I don't really want another dog for any reason besides to keep him company and entertained and we're not even supposed to have one dog really. Besides it would be twice the cost and I'm not prepared for that. The picture above is of two red heelers we saw at Pet Kingdom last week. I want my next dog to be from a shelter, which is not possible until we move out of here. One, the boy (up front) went home already. I saw his picture on their site with a young girl. The girl may still be there though. Anyway, I don't think we will get another dog. This is just me rambling about my guilt. I just fed him and he's currently lounging on his dog bed surrounded by toys (I over compensate) as I lay in bed preparing to read because i'm too exhausted to do much else. He actually woke us up in the middle of the night for the first time in a long time and it completely threw off my sleep. I had yet another energy drink today. I'm starting quite the collection.

I've all but given up on the 30 Day Challenge. It began to bore me (as things tend to do) and kept me away from here in guilt. The next one I was to do asked me to choose a best friend. How should I do that though? I've always hated that term. Do I choose the person that knows more about me and my quirks than should be allowed, but is my significant other so of course (matt) or the person who has supported me since I was fifteen, who it's hard for me to relate to these days but whose son I consider my nephew (melissa), or the person with whom I share a "bff meter" who has been there for me many times over the recent years (manny) or the person who may be newer than the rest but I relate to most and can hold endless conversations with about the things we believe and both feel passionately about (shaunna)? I have a few others who are good for talking too. I mean, who ever came up with the term "best friend" anyway? What were they trying to prove?

Another wanted to know my favorite recipe. I make my scrambled eggs in the microwave.

I'm anxious to get that new lens. I think it will be wonderful to have on 4th of July given what i've heard about its response to low light situations.

Back to Pride & Prejudice. I know this is everyone with a vagina's favorite book but I'm just not getting it yet. Maybe later.

New layout complete.

To Happily Purchase After Bills Are Paid:
35mm Prime Lens
Remote
Filters

To Eventually Purchase In June:
Larger Tripod
Class

And I am certainly not reading Pride & Prejudice on a website while at work. No definitely not.